If only..

If only, i could tell you, How much i miss you.. Every time i close my eyes, i see us having our amazing moment… A place where no 1 disturbs and everything is happy to watch us belong together… I feel a weird emptiness since the last time we spoke… The last time we met, we hugged, kissed and you told me u love me while i was just wondering if i could stay this way, in your arms forever.. Its difficult to accept, the other day u just said you aren’t sure if you love me.. That was just not acceptable..
If only i would have stopped you from meeting that bitch.. Who tries to get you back by blackmailing you.. Sayin she’d drink bagon n m like ”gimme a break”..
Its weird that the bagon drinking bitch wins..
Wonder wat happens next after the bagon digests… Lol.. If only i could fight the weirdness.. If only i had the courage to call u n ask if things can ever be the way they were… If only i could hope again.. Have faith in the fact that we were meant to be..  That the connection we felt happens once in a lifetime.. N you would fight equally hard to sustain it.. But i guess it all just boils down to ‘if only’..
If only i could drink bagon for u, i’d be in your life.. I believe.. But i’d prefer a regular intake of food instead of having a pesticide… I’ll find a remedy for these hurting and stinking feelings  .. A better remedy than bagon.. Well i believe that’s why i don’t deserve you, coz m the girl  who finds a better remedy than a pesticide, to deal with her feelings.. I choose to act more matured.. Even when you fell for my stupidity..i choose to be a better person.. N somewhere out there, there’s this amazing guy waiting for me… Who must be wondering why he’s been single all this time even after being so absolutely charming .. N i’d be a perfect answer to all his amazement 😉

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Posted by on July 25, 2014 in Uncategorized


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The guy who never replied

Today i write an email to this guy who never quite replied to my texts and because once he told me he never ignores his mail.. So just in the hope that this mail of mine will find some ‘peace’ of his mind.. I write this..
Dear Mr. Busy,
    I decide to let go..  Today your ex asked you to get back into her life and all you could tell her was, ” i am confused”.. So when you held me in your cabin, what was all that?! I did not find confusion..
You told me you understand what i am going through.. I so wish you did, because if that was the case, you would have lied to me, told me that u asked her to leave your life… But you chose to hurt me with the truth instead..
She’s messed, she’s not finding a job, she has problems, well sure as hell she does but aren’t we all going through this same shit.. How come is it that i never crossed your mind when you wished to shower people with sympathy..
I visualised dreams having you and me.. Always wondered I’ll share it with you when the right time arrives but then there is this one thing that won’t happen.. The right time just never really arrives.. The moment was just never meant to be or just couldn’t be..
I let you go because she needs you more than i do.. I would grow in your love but she would bask in it..
If i had you, each morning i couldn’t watch the guilt in your eye that screams to me saying,”she needs me”.. Because again you’d ignore that look in my eye that says,”just stay.. I need you too” and i’d just give you away in the hope that someday you’d just go back to the moment and re-read the look in my eye and know, that we were meant to be..
The girl you never really loved.


At times the real challenge is to be the stronger person and to decide to ‘let go’ off something that chooses to do no good to you..

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Posted by on July 12, 2014 in Uncategorized


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people talk about new year resolutions n stuff but i have a rather different question for u guys and that is, “what was it that this year taught you?” well since its my question i’d like to answer it 1st!! And i learnt that life goes on no matter what…..people are like oxygen, they help u live but that does not mean u trap the oxygen!!!!!! cause it wud lead to suffocation and rather just leave anf breathe sum new air, wud seem more refreshing n easy!!!! to all my old friends as well as the new ones thanx a lot for makin my year so special u guys left me breathless!!!!!!!!!!!!! huh!! 😉

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Posted by on July 8, 2014 in Uncategorized